It has been almost a year since I updated. That's crazy. Well a lot has happened in that year.

1) I now have five cats. Yeah I know it is crazy but I do.....

2) I am no longer medicated. I found out the depression meds were making me more crazy and therefore not doing their jobs.

3)Lost a friend

4)Made new friends and gaming buddies.

5) I am trying to get pregnant, but having no luck. I had 2 miscarriages in a 3 month period. In that time thought I was going crazy because of it and gave up for a while because I could not deal with loosing 2 pregnancies.

6)My oldest is now 3 and in a year round school. He is doing so well that he no longer needs speech therapy. They are also despite his age wanting to put him in Kindergarten next year. I am unsure if I really want him to but if they think it will be ok then he probably will. He also can count to 10 in both Spanish and English, and knows and repeats several other words in Spanish. (He so cute when he watches Dora and Diego. Even Kai-Lan) He can say hello and a few random words in Mandarin Chinese. Also he is almost potty trained. YEAH!!!!!!(Well enough so that when he is at home he wears real undies, however now when he is at school or when we are out.)

7)My baby is 2 now. He is such a pain in the butt. However I love him so much. He is too smart for his own good and knows how to break into the kitchen (we have a baby gate up so they cannot get into the kitty litter pans ect.), and how to put it back after he has what he wants. He speaks as clearly as his older brother. (Which is remarkably clear for kids their age)

8) I am now 25 years old and have to move in with my mom again in order to put back money to buy a house. (We have out grown or Shit hole apartment.)This is not where I wanted to be at 25. I feel I have failed somewhere that it has resulted in that if I want my own home I have to move in with Mommy and Daddy just to come up with a down payment. However like a lot of people I know I don't have everything given to me or my family. We have to work for everything we have. Which I don't mind because I know I have accomplished something in my life that they have not. Even though they have people to give them and their kids ( the ones that have kids)everything, I have more because I know it was me that got it not anyone else. I am an adult not a leech of society, family and friends. I will eventually have what I want and then I unlike them can say I did it on my own, and I will have more because when those people who help them out are gone they are going to have nothing.

9) I have now been married for 2 years as of Oct 31. We are still much in love and are happy for the most part. So despite them common out look on marriage. We're doing great.

10) This month is the 2 yr anniversary of Zen's death. We miss him so much and love him. I just hope he has allowed his spirit to move on into his next life so he can finally find the happiness he did not have in this life. Blessed Be Zen. Grimstone the kids and I love and miss you.

Well I think that is everything. Gotta go change my baby's shitty pull-up. He is just starting potty training so he still has quite a few accidents. Later and peace out. Gallery updates are coming soon.